Friday, December 31, 2010

New Year, New You. New Me.

I've encountered so many that have said they experienced so much loss, pain and heartbreak this past year.  
It's no surprise really with all of the planetary action upstairs that hasn't occurred in hundreds of years that down here we would feel the ripple effect.  A series of eclipses, the cardinal cross that shook everyone to their core and other planetary interaction and action highlighted weaknesses in every relationship (including with ourselves) that led us to sleepless nights and hearts filled with doubt & worry.

But beyond the pain and tears, beyond the chaos of what we all went through
there is light.  
And there is still so much to be in gratitude of.  One thing is for sure - I am grateful for the opportunity and the possibility of radical change.  What I know for certain is, it takes more than hope and wishing to make it happen. 

Radical change depends on radical action.

Shiloh Sophia McCloud, an artist I met while in Sonoma a few years back continues to speak to me through her work.  To inspire radical change in my own life and in yours - I've included her 22 Questions for Moving on & setting intentions.  Let  us all vibrate toward a life we want with the clean slate of 2011 just moments away. 

1. What is it I am committed to starting?
2. What is it I am committed to finishing?
3. Who is it I am excited about being?
4. Who is it in me I am excited about letting go?
5. Where is it I will spend my time?
6. Where is it I will spend less of my time?
7. Who will I reach out to and connect with?
8. Who will I surrender and let go?
9. What is it I feel really good about?
10. What is it I need to forgive myself for?
11. What abundance am I going to bring forth?
12. What excess am I going to release?
13. How will I shine my light in the world?
14. How will I stop hiding my light?
15. How will I strengthen my relationship with Spirit?
16. What excuses will I no longer use?
17. What is it my soul longs to express?
18. What is no longer serving my soul?
19. How will I care for my body?
20. How will I no longer treat myself?
21. What was the theme for my 2010?
22. What will the theme be for my 2011? 

When you are finished answering the questions, may I suggest you make a list of everything you are grateful for. Everything.
Whether it's as simple as the smell off coffee in the morning or as complex as the love of your family.  List it.
If we live in gratitude at least two minutes a day, the clouds of what was, of what we lost will  begin to lift.  If we set intention for a life that we truly want to create our momentum and the things that will be attracted to us will reflect positively that who we are and who we really can be.

So to the universe, I say Thank you.  Thank you for highlighting the things that obviously needed to change.  With your help, we will move forward to create a life that we want minus the broken appendages and people that no longer serve us.

In Gratitude.
I am in complete gratitude of my gifts that let me be of service to my 
Higher Power and to the community.

I am in complete gratitude of my daughter, her health and her safety 
- For my family, their love and open arms as life led us  - home.

I am thankful for my friends, my support staff as I call them from near and far.  Without your strength and your laughter I wouldn't smile as hard.

What will be on your list?  
Let's shift our language from "worst year ever" to New Year, New Me - New You.  
I am here to share the journey with you - all of the way.
We are in this together.  

In Radical Love & Compassion, 

Friday, December 24, 2010

Christmas Ghosts

Tis the season of last minute things to do, wrap presents, clean the house for guests oh
and clear unwanted spirits out of neighbors homes.

This morning I received an urgent call from BMPS founder Bob Shaeffer.
On Monday, Bob and I were scheduled to assess an urgent situation at a home near the Broadheadsville area involving two very young children.

Bob limits what he tells me about 99% of the cases so that I can have a clean slate walking into the homes with questionable activity. And I like it that way.
The only other thing he mentioned prior to this phone call were that things in the home were being thrown and that he personally could sense a presence there.

But this mornings call was a 911 response from BMPS after the family left several messages for Bob at 2:35 this morning.  The man of the house had the entire family locked in a room with a gun ready because of a heavy handed banging at the front door with - no one there - and no explanation for the loud noise.
Every member of the household had witnessed this phenomenon and were shaken to the core.

Of course, with this information my parents were more than happy to oblige in taking care of my young swallow while I hurried off to do the work that I've been called to by the Universe. I am so very grateful that they appreciate the gifts that I have and the love I want to give to others because of them.

When Bob & I pulled in the driveway, I noticed the family car had been running. The woman of the house wanted to keep the children away from our work.  A good idea not knowing what yet we were dealing with.
After introducing myself I did a walk through and felt nothing "evil" as the family had feared.
However, I did pick up on more than one energy - all of which were male.

I sat the family minus the man of the house who was called into work - down - to explain to them what had happened on their property as I had gotten a clear picture on my walk about.

A horrible tragedy had taken place on there involving a young boy, a hunter and a dog.
I'm not sure if the boy followed the man into the woods or was hiding on him but after he was shot and hunter realized what he had done, he took his own life - unable to find rescue / help for the child.
I felt the left side of my face fill with pressure as I watched the gruesome scene unfold. I saw the hunter bang on the front door.  It all made sense.
Bob complained of an unusual and swift onset of a sinus migrane.
The woman of the house said the night before - before the banging had taken place - the entire left side of her face was in pain. She even took a shower to try to relieve some of the unexplicable pressure.

I assured the Mrs. that since it was the holiday season, her house would continue to fill with spirits - especially those of friends and family past to welcome the couple's newborn son and to extend holiday blessings.
With that the family waited in the car while Bob and I began the cleansing ritual.

After a few of my designated clearing rites, I asked Bob to join me on the floor in the living room - and to please turn off the Franks Box!  As I may have mentioned before, he is a man of science but in the spiritual world, I need no distractions.

We filled the home with the Universe's love and light. I saw the hunter, the child and a dog stand next to us. I opened the door  and invited them join their loved one's  - I assured them that it was ok. That fear was the only thing keeping them here. The dog ran first and reluctantly - the hunter picked up the child and at the very same time I saw them walk through the entrance - BOB yelled. "They're Gone!  My head doesn't hurt anymore!"

We called the husband and explained to both he and his wife to acknowledge the good work that they had done in helping others who were desperately in need. The hunter was clearly attracted to the man of the house who also was an avid hunter himself - and clung to him after coming across his energy deer hunting in the woods on the property.

The important thing I really wanted the family to understand was - that if they changed the way they approached the "paranormal things" occurred that everything was going to be ok.  The next time they heard a bump in the night, I invited them to thank their loved ones for visiting. When you change your language from fear to love - then all of us - in this world and the next will be in harmony.

Christmas Blessings To You.
PS - Don't forget to say hello to your ghosts of Xmas Past.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Yule & Lunar Blessings

Tonight under the light of the moon
robust and glorious
I no longer feel like a paper bag floating in the wind
waiting for life to bring to me what is meant to be

Tonight I shed the things that no longer serve me
insecurity, chaos and attracting things that aren't in harmony
with the life that I want

Tonight a new candle is unwrapped, placed in a shiny new vase
I invite the light into our life
The darkness has drowned us
when we wake up
the moon will be blood red
shining to shed skin that no longer serves

Ladies and Gentleman of the Jury
there is no were else to go
but back to the source

cut off all the appendages that don't fit or make you happy
stab them with a knife made purely from love
heal your wounds with patience
spring is coming
she's whispering sweet nothings to you in the trees
but not in the mistletoe leaves

In the meantime, protect yourself from thunder
from lightning
and from all other evils that call your name from your flat screen TV
Eat, pray, LOVE.

Turn on the lights knowing
today is the first day of the rest of your life
the wheel in the sky makes it so

Sunday, December 12, 2010

everybody's changing and I don't feel the same

the carpet is yanked from beneath your comfort zone
your knowing
your intuition
everything is what is and not what you expected it to be
remember your name
remember who you were before someone else consumed you
made you feel less than you
surround you with substance

no one should point out your flaws
or want to take a break from you
an excuse
for something not yet to be named

throw back shots
to fit in
drink, work, drive drink
pop prescriptions in your fathers name
run from your truth
forget about emotions because feelings hurt you most
turn the music up
drown out the impact
car crash

everybody's changing
your still passive aggressive
from no one

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